We stopped at the hospital first and when I saw Zoey for the first time all weekend I just held her and cried and Stew cried. I so badly just want to tell the nurses "Thank you for all your help but I'm taking my baby home!" If only it were that easy =(
She is doing so wonderful though, and has gained up to 6lbs 7oz! She is finally coming along and every ounce she gains is just one ounce closer to coming home!
I doubt I'll be able to make it until Friday before I see her again so I'm sure one day this week I will be making a day trip up to see her... Yesterday wasn't as hard as I had imagined it would be...When we left the hospital I was Ok, when I left my Aunt and Uncles house I cried for a little bit, but when we passed the hospital on our way home I fought back the tears as best as I could and I felt like my heart was just breaking in half. I think just then it hit me that I wouldn't be seeing her everyday, and that I was leaving my little baby in that hospital and she wasn't coming home with us.
It was such a strange feeling when I woke up this morning in my own home, knowing that I wasn't just visiting. I wasn't sure what to do, by now I'm usually up trying to get ready to go see Zoey, and instead I got to take my time getting up and relax a little with Abbey and rock her in that brand new rocking chair I have for the girls. Abbey and I were able to break that in for the first time this morning too. I had already given her a bottle but she wasn't quite ready to go to sleep, and I didn't want to wake Stewart up because he has a big day at work today so we went back into the nursery and rocked. Then at about 5:30 Stewart came in there and woke me up because I had not only rocked Abbey to sleep but I had rocked myself back to sleep as well.
So we will see how this week goes, I feel like I am handling it pretty well so far but its only the next morning...I have a bunch of stuff to do today to keep myself busy so maybe I won't' have time to sit and think...
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