Finally gaining weight!! =)

Zoey is finally gaining weight!! YAY!! =)  She has steadily gone up and up over the last few days..and has not lost any..even if its just half an ounce we are grateful for every little bit!  As of today she weighs 6lbs 4.4oz!! I came home for the weekend, so I don't have any new pictures to post right now but I will be back with her tomorrow and am sure I will catch up on all of the picture taking I missed over the weekend!  I've talked to the nurses all weekend long checking on her and she is doing just wonderful.

I, however have been talking to family all weekend long about a tough decision I am trying to make right now..

Being home for the weekend has been wonderful for Abbey and I.  While I miss Zoey I can't help but feel like I should be home with Abbey more then I am, but the thought of not seeing Zoey just eats me up!  Zoey has the best baby sitters she could possibly have so I shouldn't worry about her.  But I have seriously considered moving back home and going back up Friday evenings after Stewart gets off of work and the two of us spending all weekend with Zoey.  Together we could spend more time with her Friday through Sunday then I am able to alone during the week.  I am allowed to call the NICU anytime of day, and sometimes find myself waking up at 2 a.m. to call and check on her, but it helps me feel better about not being there to see her, knowing that I can call and check on her anytime I want to. 

Its hard because Zoey isn't our only baby, and its hard to feel like I'm doing the right thing for both.  I am living away from home so I can go visit Zoey every day even if its just for an hour and half, but then because of that Stewart doesn't get to see either one of his girls until the weekend.  Its not fair to Abbey that she doesn't get to go home and be with both parents because I have her with me in Fort Worth.  So I haven't quite decided what I am going to do yet,  I feel so much relief on the weekends I come home, even though I call the NICU every two hours I know Zoey is ok..there is nothing we can do right now except let her grow and get bigger while we wait for surgery...other then that she is perfectly fine, and abbey is doing great, but she doesn't get to see any of her family either because I have her with me. 

So I have a tough decision to make and am not completely sure of what I want to do...I think I'm about to lose my marbles being so far away from home and my family, but I don't know if I will go crazy being away from Zoey when I'm used to seeing her every day....

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